i stopped trying. today had it's downfalls and ups, but i stopped trying to be this girl that has everything right for her. I HATE IT!!! I hate this lifestyle... I'm a girl who wishes to be a shoujo manga who always gets the love of her life and a friend that will stay with her to the end. I want that so I could get away from this mess! this hell!! ...I'm weak. This won't be read anyway.
Today I found a manga named, Koko ni Iru Yo! People do not notice the girl except this one boy named Hinata. The girl Hikage is amazed that this boy confesses to her, a girl that is never noticed. I'm noticed.... just not for who I am really. When I express my feelings I call it complaining... I need to be tougher then this. But sometimes I want to cry too. Like now. Suicide is only a complaint. It's nothing to consider. Though I want better things for myself. I just wish my home wasn't the place I didn't want to be.... I don't... want to be like this forever.
-tori
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