I've been so mopey and soundless lately. I feel as if I just ruined everything and then I feel like that I could do something to make it better, but I don't know what to do. I know I've been typing nothing but boyfriend problems within this month, but it won't get out of my head. I mean I think I ruined something so I shall fix it!... After I get my grades straight. Yes all a pluses this time to make my dad proud of me. hmm... what to do to fix this problem in my boyfriend and my relationship? To make it feel like the way it is suppose to be... Be more interesting?... Well there's telling a million stories or talking about school... if we went to the same school. We should hang out more! that's it! Though he is most of the time busy, but not too busy to text me. > u > Hmmm... I want to hang out with him next weekend! I wanna ask when I finished my homework after school!
Other then that, I walked to school today and it was FREAKING cold... My eyes were red and my hair was out of wack when I got to the school. AGAIN. :/ nnn... I've been warming up for twenty minutes or so and still a little cold. now I am in the library doodling on my Valentine's sketch. I'm not sure why my boyfriend is on almost every picture in this sketchbook. (Because he's so sexy looking. X3)
I had this dream, where I was taking the guy that my best friend liked and in the end I asked if I liked my boyfriend now or not... It was so... bad. I would never do that! The taking the crush from best friend thing. It was horrible! But I do question if he still likes me or not. Showing my true self takes a lot and if he breaks
that my heart.... I won't be depressed. (Okay I'm lying REALLY badly) but I wouldn't neglect my studies or anything, but it would hurt... Of course it would.
espeically when you want to lie so bad that you can't do it without crying. you wish it was a lie. but in the end. it's not. not at all. you really do love him don't you?....
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